Mind vs Heart

I dont wanna like u...
but I love u still,
I know I always say am not ur gf,
And yet this feeling kills.

I know that u dont love me,
and I know that u dont really care,
but my heart still thinks bout u,
and cries in despair

All I want from u,
is a lil hug wen i need to cry,
All I always wish is,
that we never say gudbye.

But somewhere I feel,
that u probably dont understand me,
Sometimes u r so different,
n u r a complete stranger for me.

Full of love and affection for a moment,
and then it is all gone,
Strict n strange, n then,
a new YOU is born.

I dont know where I am headed,
I dont know wat to do,
Should I let this love blossom,
Or wait for the time to help me sail through.

I'd promised myself,
that I'd never love again,
Then why is this whole silly thing,
making me go insane?!

But now that its all over,
I'll start to live again,
I'll learn to live all by myself,
Even though its just not gonna be the same.

But this time around,
I'll be a strong me,
I wont weep, no I wont cry,
No matter how hard, u n ur love try.

I'LL laugh,
n I'll be happy again,
Will put all my sorrows,
Down the drain,

There are the lil birds,
singing for me,
My God ! My own people,
Are looking up to me,

The cool breeze is asking me,
to make a freah start,
N put on the backburner,
such stupid matters of heart.

I gotta do something,
I've so much to do,
To love myself,
Rather than love you.