I am Trying ...

So what if my eyes are full of tears,

Believe me, am not crying,

So what if my fingers long for his touch,

... But am trying

It will take me some time,

to put him out of my mind,

No, dont look at me like that,

... Atleast I'm trying.

They say I shud forget him,

Coz he cannot be mine,

They say I should bury all the love,

... And I tell them, am trying.

I know when he talked of our togetherness,

he was all the time lying,

And now to erase his words from my memory,

... I am trying!

To forget him completely,

I do need some more time,

But trust me or trust me not,

... My poor lil heart is still trying!

I have to erase his memories,

coz thinking bout him is no good sign,

But to wash off his love from my heart,

... I am still trying!

No more can I take this burden ,

No more can I greive for the one, who could not be mine,

But I hope that you notice,

... That this poor lil child is still trying!!!

To Love or Not To Love...

I have never loved, n i never will,
is what i used to say...
until u walked into my life,
one fine sunny day!

I cud hear my heart thumping,
at the very sight of you,
and soon the beads of love began playing on my heart,
like the morning dew.

I will not let myself go weak,
O I was so sure,
but soon ur mysterious eyes, and the sweet smile,
forced me to open my heart's doors.

'Dont love him, coz he'll go away 1 day',
My brain kept screaming,
But my silly heart refused to listen,
Coz it had already started dreaming!

Now said my heart,"Come on, love him,
just donot be afraid,
Love is meant to happen,
This feeling is not 'made'.

And so in this argument,of my heart n my brain,
I listened to my heart,
How was I to know then,that I 'd made a wrong choice,
right in the start!

And now, that he's gone,
I am telling myself again,
So wat if I've lost in love before,
But I'll never do it again.